When your tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense
When it's in your spine like you've walked for miles
And the only thing you want is just to be still for a while

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you

When you're overwhelmed and you've lost your breath
When the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
I'll be right beside you

I will stay
Nobody will break you

Trust in me, trust in me
Don't pull away
Just trust in me, trust in me
Cause I'm just trying to keep this together
Cause I could do worse and you could do better

Tears are spent on your last pretense
And your tired eyes refuse to close and sleep in your defense

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you

If your heart wears thin I will hold you up
And I will hide you when it gets too much
I'll be right beside you
Nobody will break you.

In the pain there is healing..

Alcohol's my new best friend this summer.

Pain.

“Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop.” - Grey's Anatomy

No matter how many times you tell yourself you're over it, that aching pain is still going to be there. How do you tell the wrong from the right? How do you know what your doing is wrong or right? are we made to function in a specific way? I dont think so.
Its okay to hurt. Its okay to feel.
But what isnt so okay is forgiving and forgetting.
Yes, sometimes that might be advisable to avoid a dispute or just to put an end to a very long worthless fight.
But sometimes its not easy to forget. We cant make ourselves forget no matter how much we want to.
And forgiving. Well, thats a whole different story.
Are you forgiving cause you sincerely mean it?
Are you forgiving to put a stop to it?
Are you forgiving cause you have no other choice?
Are you forgiving cause you're afraid to lose that someone?
Or are you forgiving cause you just dont want to believe it ever happened?
Its not an option to forgive and forget, its a choice we make.
we make that choice for the better or for the worse.

Sometimes its not the matter of if you want to or not, its that you CAN'T.
You just cant make yourself forget that horrible memory or infact forgive that person after what they've done to you.
Yes, it may seem more mature to move the hell on and forget about it all. But we all have our own ways of getting over something and moving on.
And thats when I come to my conclusion readers.
Two words.
FUCK IT.
and drink to that =D

My turtle-to-be

Isnt it adorable? =D

Dedication #1

Okay so, I've promised a million and one people to dedicate some posts on my blog for them but im going to start off with one of my favourite peeeople :*

HADEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (L)
He.be.the.best.
Bio mock preparation was truly epic with you , Hahahah THOSE DARN GRAPH QUESTIONS.
anyway to HELL with all that now since we're done with highschool =D well I am?
even though you couldnt make it to the party that day, I still heart you ! and yes we'll find a way to meet up even with all your crap, i'll come to sharjah one day if I have to once im back cause I dont remember the last time i saw your face -_-   felicia's house?  JUNE 10TH?
Its july 3rd now. YEAH that long.
even though we havent hung out much outside school, I still feel like I know you enough to say you're awesome =o (not as awesome as me, but you're getting there..)
your music taste ! (L)
your weird name suggestions for my turtle-to-be! (L)
your way of cheering someone up! (L)
That huge ass grin of yours! (L)

This boy was one of which who inspired me to write this blog.
And this boy I love very much !
I dont have much time to write alot, incase another powercut strikes so this is all for now.  
Miss you hadee =D we need to get wasted and have a drag soon please.

Feels good to be back home !

Srilanka Matha <3
One month's a little too long. But I guess its good to take a break sometimes, from the same 'ol dooobaai !
And this time we're travelling to the outskirts to different cities , so gives me a chance to rediscover my own country and enjoy the serene beauty , yknow stuff like that =P
Plus it just might be the last time I come here , with university this year I wont have time to be travelling around the world sooo here's to making this summer my bitch !

Prom '11

A little late but here's to one of the best memories of high school !



Feelix =D



She definitely deserved prom queen.



creep. <3



Perfect two.




Not our best picture, but I heart this girl =o