Starting new

With school over for good now, IM STARTING UNIII IN A MOOOOOOONTH =D

excited doesnt sum up what I feel. Ive been looking forward to uni for a while nooow
Even though its not where I expected. I was supposed to go to UK but I guess i can deal with what I have now.
Ive learnt to appreciate what I get and Im sure something will work out later and I'll go, till then no hopes up high : )

I starting writing another book just recently, and ive been occupying myself by reading alot too. I dont know, the writing helps me vent my feelings and I enjoy doing it .. Until ofcourse I get sidetracked and run out of a proper plot to continue

which is exactly what happened to me last time and I gave up on that book eventually. But I wrote a complete cliche before, im trying to make this new book something better and based on me in a few parts.

This summer has been quite eventful even though its coming to an end.

Im not going to say I enjoyed every day of it, there were some not-so-great days where I just stayed in or my mood wasnt lifted but all in all I enjoyed this summer more than I did last summer atleast

In two weeks , my brother's departing to uni as well to UK.

I really am going to miss him, but life goes on.

18 years of being around him. cant blame me ?

He can be a jerk sometimes, but I know he always watches out for me nevertheless.

I know im going to feel it once he leaves, for now I still get annoyed by his presence. And im certainly not looking forward to that day in 2 weeks time.

Ofcourse he'll come back for holidays for a week or two but for the rest of the next 4 years he wont be around.

However annoying is , family always means the most and he's the only guy who wont EVER let me down , for that I love him very much.Word.

eid is sooooooooooon =D WHICH MEANS SWIMMING IN CAASHH. fhwidjksmdowmfks

till next time viewers..

INTRODUCING SHIRLEY : The girl I extremely hate and love :D

DONE
I LOVE SHIZRLEY
SHES THE BEST
I LOVE HEZR
I WISH I WAS LIKE HEZR (i wrote this Shirley)

What are words if you really dont mean them when you say them ?

I know I've been M.I.A for a while. No excuses.

But its not easy blogging through a blackberry ( ah yes I finally managed to get my hands on one after persuading my parents )

But im here now, blogging :)

When times get tough, we resort to cutting everything and anyone from our lives.
To move on.

To not bother explaining.

To just be alone.

but all we need is that someone coming and telling us, " I know you're not fine but know that im always here for you and i'll make you feel fine again, I promise "

Ha, if only that were how it worked out everyday in our loves how much easier things would be.

But without fights, hardships, losses and breakups , how are we ever going to know the bad? The good is deceiving sometimes. You believe what you want to see and not what you're given.

Dont over analayze situations.

If he/she doesnt like  you or if its not working out the right thing to do is move on.

Just stop asking yourself questions like : Where did I go wrong? Should I talk to him or call him and ask him whats wrong ? Should I wait for him to? Should I just find someone new now ?

Change is constant. You dont get what you want when you want it.
You get it when you deserve it.

Dont be dissapointed if the universe doesnt show you signs, its only waiting for something better out there to reveal to you later.

He might have said I love you and I'll never forget you. But we all throw around those words so easily these days it doesnt even mean as much as it did anymore. We're too young to know what love is.

Love is a great thing, once its proved one day. Until then its just words.

And who's to know you might not be the only one he's saying it to?

Dont attach yourself to one person your whole life, it gets so much harder when they leave.

Dont say it if you dont mean it.

Cause What are words if you really dont mean them when you say them ?

Doomsday arrives

Getting shipped to srilanka soooooon.
Its all good.

"If you could go back and just change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing? Just one moment. One moment that you’ve always wanted back."

Beautiful lie

"When you’re young everything feels like the end of the world. But it’s not; it’s just the beginning. You might have to meet a few more jerks, but one day you’re gonna meet a boy who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. Like the sun rises and sets with you."

Big or small , lies are lies. You dont think what you're doing before you do it and end up hurting people who trusted you the most. why do you do that when they trusted you with all they've got ?

it gives them a reason to never trust you again. We all make our fare share of mistakes but the fact that you knew what you were doing wrong and you still continued and did it anyway makes it completely all your fault. And hiding it away because your're afraid if you come out with it you'll will either never be forgiven or you'll just end up with a long line of haters ? Well I believe you deserve that.

You dont mess with more than one person. thats just not cool.

But they'll never understand how much it actually hurts us girls. Heartless bastards 8-)

Built To Last

When we first talked to each other
I knew we would always be friends.
Our friendship has kept on growing
And I'll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have a problem
And help dry the tears from my face.
You take away my sorrow
And put happiness in its place.

We can't forget the fun we've had
Laughing 'til our faces turn blue.
Talking of things only we find funny
People would think we're insane-If they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks
For catching me when I fall.
Thanks once again for being such a good friend
And being here with me through it all.

Something I can never have

I want what I can never have with him.

I want to be more than just friends.

I want to know he'll always be there for me.

I want to know hes missing me just the way I miss him everday.

I want to know he's wanting just what I want.

But alas its just a summer love..